Santa Claus on Holiday in Sono!

To anyone out there!   

Since I haven't been blogging too much lately, the Season is upon us as you know....I thought that it was appropriate to share with you my recent Santa siting in SoNo!  Now here's a character for you all who don't know or recognize him.   A known local in the Norwalk, CT area but to me, well I prefer to think of him as Santa incognito!  Well, he didn't fool me that's for sure, although he did try to tell me his name is Zarzan.   Yea, like I totally believe him.  Although when he gave me his business card, which described his business as "acting, drums, artwork, poetry, keyboards"  I knew then that for sure I had the right guy.  Come on, I know the code words for elf assignments when I see them!   Who's who trying to fool anyway?

This too shall pass - Here today, Gone tomorrow!

The Big Red Tree

There in the woods

Stood a big red tree

With its branches out

And its leaves in the free

No one there had a doubt

That this big red tree

Would ever shout.

Years ago in Catholic elementary school I wrote this simple poem.   My grade was C- and I was crushed.   I thought it was so great and insightful.

Now as a mature woman in my Goddess stage of life, I realize that all my "shouting" for acceptance from others was futile.   All I needed was a Higher Power and I would find my voice and then be heard.    

To all the wonderful friends that I have in my life today - I celebrate your inner big red tree!!

New York Skyline on a Clear Day!    We drove into Flushing, NY from CT to goto the U.S. Open!   It was a gorgeous day and not a cloud in the sky.   But my "city" heart is still in L.A.  

Morphing into "What"?

Exhausted. Sad. Excited. Scared. Curious. Tired. Frustrated. Lonely. Overwhelmed. Uptight. Free. Angry. Lost. Tearful. Sore.  

All packed and somewhere to go!

The dumpster runneth over - boxes line our halls and living areas - and the tears keep coming.   I'm going to miss this home where so many memories, good and not so good have been created.   Therefore, the first plan for today (since they don't load the truck till tomorrow) is....when the going gets tough, the tough go pamper!   Me and Lil are going for the pedi-mani cure!   Hugs out to my "peeps" who read this.  xoxxo

What a tangled web we weave!

Busy lives, hectic lifestyles, shopping for stuff.   As we are in the process of decluttering our lives and moving into a smaller more manageable house and property, I am acutely aware of the excess of unnecessary items I have acquired.   In addition, how hard it is to let go of things.   I struggle with just throwing away something to putting it aside because someone could use it.   May I always remember how truly blessed I am with good people in my life.

Back From CA

Santa Clara University was beautiful.   What a gorgeous campus, nice facilities and I met some nice "parents".   It was great to see my old friend Dori and her two kids Sophia & Grant.  Sophia was in the jacuzzi with her friend and I heard her say "Did you see the boy yet?"   Then she paused, took a deep breath and told her "He's sooo cute!"   Oh my God I wanted to die.   From then on she was completely enamored with Max.   Here's a photo of Max and Sophia at the beach in Santa Cruz.   Love you to all!

The Lily's are in Bloom

More and more blooms this year - so much rain has made things alive!!
I'm taking a lot of photos of my flowers this year since I know it will be the last year in this house.  A bitter sweet exercise in appreciation and gratitude.  

Time again for corn from the farm stand!

Happy 4th of July!!!

Not really.   Not really unhappy either.   I did get out on my mountain bike for the first time in a long long time and that was nice.   It was actually a very weird day.   Went to a great women's meeting this a.m.  but I ended up finding out things that I wish I didn't know about another person.   The weight of another's truth is heavy in my heart.  My good friend has a rough journey facing her in a failed marriage and my heart want's to help but it's not my journey.  She's been a rock to me in many many ways when she didn't even try to be anything but true to herself.   I'm also angry that some - that many -  people just can't be trusted.  

It's been quiet in my home without my kids around.   They are growing up and seem to be gone 85% of the time.   I better start getting use to it and figure out what I should be doing with my time since it seems I'm no longer a full time mom.  I miss my kids.  Uh oh.

I need technical assistance!

I've read the two most lovely responses on my blog from Jackie and Robin!  And I can't figure out how to respond back so I'm just going to do it this way.   

Your comments brought tears to my eyes and a smile on my face all at the same time.  What wonderful things to read and know that you guys truly mean it from the heart.  My Max is a very lucky young man!!   One day you'll see how challenging, difficult, amazing and wonderful it is to be a mom.  It was something I always wanted to be - I think you guys know that when I was 18 I got pregnant and just knew in my gut that I needed to have the baby.  So at 19 I gave birth to a little girl born 7/7/78 at 8:07 and she was 7 lbs. 8 oz.  When I met Jon 10 years later I knew I was going to have his children.  And one day surprise surprise here comes Max.  I wasn't very excited at first since that meant I was going to be pregnant on my wedding day (I already had my dress).    Then 4 months after returning from our honeymoon - we moved from CA to CT and Max was born on Halloween!  He was special from the very first moment and I protected him from everything I could control.   Now he's almost 18 and ready to leave CT for college in CA and I think I'm having some issues of letting go and I don't even realize it.  What a strange cycle of life.  You ladies are amazing women and I am so glad that you are a part of his life, but also that you are a part of mine!  I love you.

A NEW DAY!!

Peonies are my favorite!

Well, it's amazing the difference a day can make!    It must be something lunar since it seems like every loose end has started to come together.   Finally we found a house that is pretty close to perfect for us.   It will be a down size that accomplishes almost all of the criteria we need to fulfill.  Same school for Lily, nice interior, vintage but updated, great paint colors and the list goes on.   Also a lead on a great sounding job so I'll keep "my blog" updated.  PEACE

I feel I have no "purpose".   Sure I'm a wife - to a grown man who has his own bag of tricks and issues.  A mother - to two teens who could give a shit about me and need to forage their own path in the world.  A very part-time employee in an industry that is economically challenged.  A sponsor who is close to a drink.  And a daughter to two deceased parents. I'm not in a great place today.  

Yankee's Win!!!

Good friends - free tickets - great parking - great seats - total rainbow - full moon - AND THE YANKEES WIN!!!   What more could you ask for?

Graduation Day!!!

It was hotter than Hades and those poor Prep boys had to wear tuxedos in an un-airconditioned gymnasium!!  But did they look handsome!   Especially my baby boy, Max.

Stay where your feet are!

Today and just for today.... I'm going to try to "practice mindfulness".  

The reason being is that yesterday for the third or fourth time in about a month, I locked my keys in the car.   And although I had put my keys on a lanyard to hang around my neck (so I would remember them before exiting the vehicle) instead, I left them sitting on the passenger seat.  Fortunately, several days ago a rear passenger had opened the side wing window.  After getting a hanger from the drycleaner I was able to slide my forearm through the 2.5" opening and fish them off the front seat.   This took about 20 minutes and fortunately I was laughing but in the end I realized that my "system" needed revamping.

  

So I share with you my new system:

Don't mess with wild turkeys!!!  Especially these strutting males!  

Clematis Blossom

A couple of years ago I planted clematis and its finally blooming!  Spring in Ct is very special - I figure it's God way of throwing up a bone since we had to put up with winter.

First Posting

Well I guess I have arrived!  This is my intro into the world of blogging.  I know nothing about it, have never gone to a blog site nor have I ever been invited to one.   So for all of you oldtimers who know about this blogging thing - be patient with me till I have it figured out.  

I would like to thank the dear sweet Jackie for introducing me to this concept.   She is out at the Prep Senior Prom with Max right now and can't wait to show her what I've done. Here is a picture of them before they left for the Prom.  She looked beautiful and he was handsome.  They were very happy!